SUBJECT: DAIKI MATSUOKA
observation active
"He laughs like he was never left behind."
Daiki,
What if I killed Chen?
subject: Daiki Matsuoka
cooperation rating: 8 / 10
intellect rating: 6 / 10
physical rating: 5 / 10
magic rating: 4 / 10
water response: yes
reported fear: His ex, because the relationship left him traumatised. Medications, because they are tied to a past addiction. Abandonment, because so much of his life has felt like a revolving door of people leaving.
ambition: Stability, safety, and a place where he is free to love without feeling as if he will be left behind.
trusted names: Hadeon, Cindy, Chen.
untrusted names: Avery, Armani, Oswin.
childhood record
Daiki views his childhood through rose-tinted glass, as though it was picture perfect even when the truth was more complicated. He was raised by a single grandparent: an overprotective but deeply loving grandfather who shielded him from the negative strife moving through the family.
As a child, Daiki was happy-go-lucky, full of laughter and smiles bright as the sun. He wanted to be close to his older brother, but never questioned too deeply why he was always made to spend so much time with his grandfather instead.
When he was a young teenager, his grandfather was arrested. After that, Daiki was left in the care of his older brother, who was never really around.
fears
Daiki fears his ex because that relationship left lasting trauma behind.
He fears medications because they are connected to a past addiction.
He fears abandonment because too much of his life has been shaped by people leaving.
secrets
Daiki is a recovered addict.
He is a survivor of past assault.
There are parts of his history that he has learned to package as silence because speaking them aloud makes them feel too real.
love record
His past love was an ex-boyfriend: childlike wonder, butterflies in the stomach, and someone who had been there for him during a desperate time of need. That vulnerability was taken advantage of.
Chen is different and current, though the memory is hazy. There is still a feeling in Daiki's chest when he thinks of him: a strange ache that rises when he looks at Chen, where sparks used to fly and laughter once came naturally. Now, when he is near him, there is a distance neither of them can keep ignoring.
recorded symbol: morning glory flowers
Morning glories represent the fleeting beauty of youth and the impermanence of summer.
Have you checked inside the box?
— STRIX